Lately my world has been full of ME......God pick ME! Show ME! Guide ME! Help ME!....me, me, me. I wonder how tired he gets about hearing about ME? But He is there, no matter what I do, what I ask for, what I need.
I have been so wrapped up in my world....I had my eyes closed. I opened them last week....and voila...all that I was surrounded by was just JOY. Blessings. LOVE. I am still just bursting with happiness. Hahaha...I know...right? But I can't explain it any more then that. I am just Happy. I have witnessed wonderful news in so many areas! There are Blessings that people asked for, and there are some that WHAM here ya go....surprise Blessings! News on Adoption(s), News on pregnancy, News on Jobs, News on Engagements and News on Ministry. I am surrounded by happiness.
This is where its not about ME at all. I am just so over joyed in their blessings! Its so great! So my morning chatting time with God has been more about PRAISE then asking in Prayer. I am sure He is pretty happy about that one. I felt such a different feeling rising up within me. When its not all about what I need or want. What He can do for my family. I mean don't get me wrong...I send little shouts of PRAISE to Him all the time! But this is different..Its just been so fruitful....the blessings. I mean I have seen it happen.! Unfold before my eyes. Its been overwhelming. I have to say, its been a long time since I have seen so many good things happen to my friends! All at once! Ah-Mazing!
This is HIS subtle reminder to me...that its NOT all about Me, not anymore. As soon as I opened my heart to Him, my life began to change. With all the bad in the world right now, I love His reminder of the good. Its what I needed at the time I needed it. SO I am off my pity pot of Job searching and Job offers and what to do when to do it....had a wonderful friend give me a post on FB about God's timing...and again...He showed me through Her...His plans for me. And I am all chilled with that now.
The Blessing and Joys are out there guys! Open your eyes and witness them. It can overwhelm you too. Happy Jenn! ....xoxo
a thought process of a believer, mom, wife and hair stylist...wrapped in one tidy package..God is center, Family a close 2nd....Hair is my passionate gift I was given by a passionate God.
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Me....
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Monday, August 8, 2011
The "What"...needs the love....too.....
Chick Night August 7, 2011....River Valley Church and Nancy Alcorn.....I could just leave that there, as thats all I need to say....If you went, you understand. Powerful. Horrifying. Eye Opening. Enraging. Tear Jerking. Joyful. Spiritual. Uplifting. Empowering. Accepted. Accepting. Heart Changing.....
You had to feel it....if you went. If you were not able to go...Let me sum it up for you: Nancy Alcorn founder of Mercy Ministries spoke at our church's chick night. She talked about her program, her background and what going on in the lives of the women she has helped. Women who have battled more then any of us will ever know, but take on abuse sexual and physical, drug addiction, unplanned pregnancy, sex trafficing, sexual identity issues... If you want to get into the bones of her program then check out their website, read her books, download in your iTunes her CDs. I don't want to bore you with the 'fine edging' to her voice. What her final message, I personally felt, was to RVC was about a young girl (before Mercy, Nancy worked in Tennessee at a correctional facility for juvenile delinquent girls and investigating child abuse cases.) whom was in the correctional facility. Nancy was the athletic coach for the girls there. This girl was having an identity crisis. She had been sexually abused by many male family members and I am sure it goes beyond what we can even comprehend. Nancy shared Jesus with the girl. The girl dressed like a boy. Maybe she was gay, we weren't told about that. Nancy encouraged this girl after she was released to join a church, a youth group, to help her get closer to God. A few months after this girl was released, Nancy got a call from the girls mother. The girl had committed suicide after she was teased and tormented and cast out from the church she was seeking help from. At this point during her telling us this, I had to cover my mouth because I was going to let out a gut wrenching cry. I was so angry....
Its not right. Its not fair. But is it us? Is it our community here in the subs of St Paul. We play it safe, don't we? Message after message of accepting people....supporting them....showing them the true Love of Jesus Christ.....but do you? Really? You nod your head with the speakers and Demand Change! Would you be one the people in our church who would sit right next to a homeless person who hasn't had a bath in weeks? Would you give your cute little Express lightweight sweater to a women who looked like she had been to the bars all night, possibly involved in sex trafficking? Would you put your arms around them? Would you pray for them? More like...would you pray with them? Would it disrupt your worship time? Would they distract you too much? Would you ask them to come to breakfast or dinner with you? Hmmmm....okay how about not so extreme.....What if a young lady came to our church....she wears her hair shorter....she has piercings,...she dresses more tomboyish than girlish....she wears guys shoes...heck...maybe she is gay! WOW!!! What does your heart say? Do you try to know her? Or do you try to avoid her? You don't have to agree with any of it....you just need to show love....do you? Do you guess about her? Her file, after all isn't public knowledge.....Like Nancy Alcorn was saying...she could read the files the background on the girls she knows what they experienced the sexual abuse, the rape, the drugs, the unthinkable......then the what...became the why....to Nancy. We don't have files to showcase to the viewing public. No one wears the hurt on a tshirt labeling all that has been done to them. We'd be okay with that..."Oh...thats why.."...
Did you know, if you have read the bible...who Jesus hung out with? Think about that...our Savior...our rescuer, our redeemer...the HOLY SON OF GOD.....he hung out with the unlovable...the ones cast out...set aside...ignored...picked on...stoned.....humiliated....He loved them. Why is it so hard for us to do the same? Why would you leave 3 seats open in between you and the unlovable one at church?
Nancy and Becca gave us a lot to think on. I hope the hearts open. You have no idea who you hurt with your looks and snears. People they get noticed. Maybe not the one who you are disgusted by...but by the one that matters, Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit.
The picture may be a bit wordy vulgarity...but its my point....
I love you...I love my famiy...I even love the ones who have issues with me and my family. I can take care of my dread locked self...its when you hurt my family....You have no idea whats in their 'files'....and there are files....Remember that...when you see me and my family....we all have files! I hold my head up and praise my Lord and my Savior...you may not like me..But I have all I need...Hebrews 13:5.......God Has Said...Never will I leave you, Never will I forsake You.
You had to feel it....if you went. If you were not able to go...Let me sum it up for you: Nancy Alcorn founder of Mercy Ministries spoke at our church's chick night. She talked about her program, her background and what going on in the lives of the women she has helped. Women who have battled more then any of us will ever know, but take on abuse sexual and physical, drug addiction, unplanned pregnancy, sex trafficing, sexual identity issues... If you want to get into the bones of her program then check out their website, read her books, download in your iTunes her CDs. I don't want to bore you with the 'fine edging' to her voice. What her final message, I personally felt, was to RVC was about a young girl (before Mercy, Nancy worked in Tennessee at a correctional facility for juvenile delinquent girls and investigating child abuse cases.) whom was in the correctional facility. Nancy was the athletic coach for the girls there. This girl was having an identity crisis. She had been sexually abused by many male family members and I am sure it goes beyond what we can even comprehend. Nancy shared Jesus with the girl. The girl dressed like a boy. Maybe she was gay, we weren't told about that. Nancy encouraged this girl after she was released to join a church, a youth group, to help her get closer to God. A few months after this girl was released, Nancy got a call from the girls mother. The girl had committed suicide after she was teased and tormented and cast out from the church she was seeking help from. At this point during her telling us this, I had to cover my mouth because I was going to let out a gut wrenching cry. I was so angry....
Its not right. Its not fair. But is it us? Is it our community here in the subs of St Paul. We play it safe, don't we? Message after message of accepting people....supporting them....showing them the true Love of Jesus Christ.....but do you? Really? You nod your head with the speakers and Demand Change! Would you be one the people in our church who would sit right next to a homeless person who hasn't had a bath in weeks? Would you give your cute little Express lightweight sweater to a women who looked like she had been to the bars all night, possibly involved in sex trafficking? Would you put your arms around them? Would you pray for them? More like...would you pray with them? Would it disrupt your worship time? Would they distract you too much? Would you ask them to come to breakfast or dinner with you? Hmmmm....okay how about not so extreme.....What if a young lady came to our church....she wears her hair shorter....she has piercings,...she dresses more tomboyish than girlish....she wears guys shoes...heck...maybe she is gay! WOW!!! What does your heart say? Do you try to know her? Or do you try to avoid her? You don't have to agree with any of it....you just need to show love....do you? Do you guess about her? Her file, after all isn't public knowledge.....Like Nancy Alcorn was saying...she could read the files the background on the girls she knows what they experienced the sexual abuse, the rape, the drugs, the unthinkable......then the what...became the why....to Nancy. We don't have files to showcase to the viewing public. No one wears the hurt on a tshirt labeling all that has been done to them. We'd be okay with that..."Oh...thats why.."...
Did you know, if you have read the bible...who Jesus hung out with? Think about that...our Savior...our rescuer, our redeemer...the HOLY SON OF GOD.....he hung out with the unlovable...the ones cast out...set aside...ignored...picked on...stoned.....humiliated....He loved them. Why is it so hard for us to do the same? Why would you leave 3 seats open in between you and the unlovable one at church?
The picture may be a bit wordy vulgarity...but its my point....
I love you...I love my famiy...I even love the ones who have issues with me and my family. I can take care of my dread locked self...its when you hurt my family....You have no idea whats in their 'files'....and there are files....Remember that...when you see me and my family....we all have files! I hold my head up and praise my Lord and my Savior...you may not like me..But I have all I need...Hebrews 13:5.......God Has Said...Never will I leave you, Never will I forsake You.
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